waiting for you
it's been a horrid week. long hours at work and drama that i wish i could just put to bed and move on. and boys - oh boys. i guess to be fair, that shouldn't be plural...oh, and U2. the ONE band that i have been looking forward to since...oh - well - my birth. bono hurt is back and they've postponed the tour until 2011. my heart just can't take any more of this. i seriously have to wait another YEAR for U2? i feel like they need to give us a free shirt or something...bah! and to top it all off - the fray was supposed to open for them.
so the title of this post is a double-wammy. i'm waiting for U2 and then there's this other piece that i have already mentioned. boys...one in particular that didn't work out.
i hate that phrase..."well - it just didn't work out".
lame.
i think what i'm struggling with the most is that "it" didn't work out...it being 'a' relationship - not really this one in specifically. just the fact that i'm single yet again. there are points (many of them) where i think that singledom is just easier - i call my own shots, i don't have to baby a relationship, i don't have to be obliged to call someone or be intentional about my actions towards them...then there's all the nice packaged responses of:
"but when you find the right person, you'll want to"
"you'll know. when you find him - you'll know. you won't question it"
"there's one out there for you - you just wait."
"it's just not your time right now."
again, lame.
there are times and of course because of the events of this week, a lot more recent times when i wonder if God has actually set before me to be single. that He has it in his plan for me to be on my own. i look at myself and know that he has created a strength inside of me to be on my own, but as i mentioned to a friend of mine this week - how do you shake the loneliness? i do believe that God would remove the desire for someone if he wanted me to go it alone and maybe it's just coming to a place where God is the one who makes me whole rather than working and trying to fill or complete my life with another human being.
so i will leave you with this...a song by Ben Harper, who is one of my favourites. for me, the 'you' is nameless in my life - and hopefully is just waiting to be named.
.:bear:.
"Waiting For You"
I've been waiting for you
I've been waiting for you
Never found anything else to do
But waiting for you
I've been calling your name
I've been calling your name
Never found anything else to say
Nothing to say
You can kill a lot of time if you really want put your mind do it
Leave it all behind if you never wanna go through it
I keep hearing your name
I keep hearing your name
Nothing else sounds the same
As hearing your name
You can kill a lot of time if you really put your mind to it
Or leave it all behind and never ever go through it
I've been hoping for you
Keep hoping for you
What else can I do
But keep hoping for you?
You can kill a lot of time if you really put your mind to it
Or leave it all behind and never ever go through it
We can kill a lot and never really have to go through it
What else can I do
But keep hoping for you?
so the title of this post is a double-wammy. i'm waiting for U2 and then there's this other piece that i have already mentioned. boys...one in particular that didn't work out.
i hate that phrase..."well - it just didn't work out".
lame.
i think what i'm struggling with the most is that "it" didn't work out...it being 'a' relationship - not really this one in specifically. just the fact that i'm single yet again. there are points (many of them) where i think that singledom is just easier - i call my own shots, i don't have to baby a relationship, i don't have to be obliged to call someone or be intentional about my actions towards them...then there's all the nice packaged responses of:
"but when you find the right person, you'll want to"
"you'll know. when you find him - you'll know. you won't question it"
"there's one out there for you - you just wait."
"it's just not your time right now."
again, lame.
there are times and of course because of the events of this week, a lot more recent times when i wonder if God has actually set before me to be single. that He has it in his plan for me to be on my own. i look at myself and know that he has created a strength inside of me to be on my own, but as i mentioned to a friend of mine this week - how do you shake the loneliness? i do believe that God would remove the desire for someone if he wanted me to go it alone and maybe it's just coming to a place where God is the one who makes me whole rather than working and trying to fill or complete my life with another human being.
so i will leave you with this...a song by Ben Harper, who is one of my favourites. for me, the 'you' is nameless in my life - and hopefully is just waiting to be named.
.:bear:.
"Waiting For You"
I've been waiting for you
I've been waiting for you
Never found anything else to do
But waiting for you
I've been calling your name
I've been calling your name
Never found anything else to say
Nothing to say
You can kill a lot of time if you really want put your mind do it
Leave it all behind if you never wanna go through it
I keep hearing your name
I keep hearing your name
Nothing else sounds the same
As hearing your name
You can kill a lot of time if you really put your mind to it
Or leave it all behind and never ever go through it
I've been hoping for you
Keep hoping for you
What else can I do
But keep hoping for you?
You can kill a lot of time if you really put your mind to it
Or leave it all behind and never ever go through it
We can kill a lot and never really have to go through it
What else can I do
But keep hoping for you?
"Work without Hope draws nectar in a sieve,
ReplyDeleteAnd Hope without an object cannot live"
Samuel Coleridge
Life is just holds many things, be encouraged someone told me all things pass. BUT we must learn and grow to be better and stronger.